I just want someone to care about me and make me a priority for once...instead of me fighting for a place in thier lives and leaving myself avaliable. People claim they care or like me but thier actions never match thier words. They say they want to be more, but only really like the idea of being chased. They say they are my friend, but only message me when everyone else is gone. They say they care but when I reach out in my vulnerable times, they aren't there or they disappear and it makes me feel like there is no 'comfort zone' with them.

Sometimes I feel so lonely, but I know alot of this is usually just me over thinking and causing my own down fall. However when I feel like hardly anyone is there, I just have a habit of closing myself off to the world.

Anyone else get like this? I feel like I'm on a loop. One moment I'm fine, the next I feel unimportant and I just want someone to make me feel important and moments later I'm super independent and don't care If I have others in my life or not.

P.s this is just a rant. Please stay out of my DM and chats- I'm not looking for an online partner at this moment.