I have never felt more alone in my life, ever. I have been in a relationship with someone I should never have been with because we just don’t connect. I have a step daughter whom I now feel as though I’m letting down by breaking up with her mother. I grew up without a father and I feel like the same right now.

I am a shy introverted 37 year old guy. I don’t make deep friendships easily. I tend to look for validation from others before seeking or realizing it in myself.

I am not suicidal but at the same time, I do envy those that do it because sometimes it’s too much.

All I really want is someone to make time for me and I want to stop feeling this massive hole in my chest.

I don’t know how or why this would help, but if anyone out there is actually listening … I’m tired of feeling this way.