I have been fat-shamed, bullied by most of my classmates growing up, fat-shamed, called a disappointment for not betting ‘good enough’ grades by my parents my whole life. Now, to satisfy my parents and perhaps finally make them proud of myself, I am in med school. But it’s not working out for me, at all. I am not one bit interested in medicine, for starters. I have been failing my exams and my assessments and am on the verge of being detained. I have no friends here. I am away from home. My parents are old and I want to take care of them. Every aspect of my life is falling apart. I feel like suicide is the only answer. I have tried my whole life, to be good enough for people but nothing I did was ever good enough and I’m still alone. I always was alone and I’m still alone. I am interested in psychology but my parents won’t let me pursue it. I am standing on the ledge.