Today looks like one of those days I remember being hurt. One of those days I can't stop my brain. I feel stupid right now. I know escapism is not the answer, I tried that, and backfired, fun.

Before my ex happened I was a different person. Then he took pieces of me but didn't give any of his back, he should have that way I won't be incomplete. For years I was incomplete. And now my negative mechanisms are so ingrained in me I don't even see that I'm sabotaging myself.

Is it stupid to remember being hurt? Fuck, it's so hard when it starts, because no matter how much I want to stop it, it won't.

Fuck this. Looks like it will be Sigur Ros who will keep me company. May Jonsi's voice heal me.