I dont know what to do with my self. I feel so alone. Its like im not even a bad guy, but its this bullshit where nice guys finish last i dont know anymore. I feel like i just want to explode inside with how i feel. Ive tried to find other people but they always say how they are not looking for a relationship. Ive done so much to improve myself, get fit, go to gym, get a job but nothing works. I feel height surgery or plastic surgery or something because i no longer know how to change myself, how much more to improve myself. Ive changed so much and its still not enough its never enough. All these feelings are building up to something scary. I was never a hateful person but i see myself thinking thoughts i never thought before. A hate for couples and even worse the opposite gender. I dont know what to do and im scared.