So. This has been a journey. Me and my girlfriend of 2 years broke up and I decided it was best for us to separate and stop living together. She wanted to us to stay together but we both weren’t happy. The first year I was going through a lot mentally and was really self destructive. The 2nd year I actually got help. I went to therapy every week. Talked through my trauma. Really got to the bottom of my feelings and why I had been so angry all of my life.

One day she decided she didn’t love me anymore because I had too many mental instabilities. But one major thing is because I wasn’t as intimate anymore. I started working on my mental health and everything else seemed so out of touch for me. She got upset about it. She is younger than me and sex is a huge thing for her. I know she has nothing to do with it to some of you.

Within this time I was set to move to texas and start a new job doing corrections. Well that didn’t pan out so I had to stay here but I no longer have my job, I’m moving out of my house, and some of my “best friends” decided to start petty drama during all of this. My mental health has never been so low in so long because of all of this.

My ex has been here though. She wants us to be friends because “I mean everything to her and she loves me more than anything”. My brain is so fuzzy right now. But now I feel like I don’t have anyone to really talk to. It feels like everyone is moving on with their life and I’m just trying to figure out where I’m going to work and live. The only company I have is my dog. He’s been pretty great to be honest. But I’d like some human interaction too.