I'm also kind of high so bare with me here. Sometimes I feel emotional when I come home. I'm studying at home at the moment as I plan to transfer schools in the next semester and I start thinking about how I feel so distant from my parents and older brother even though we all live here. Sure we have somewhat normal family problems but we're not arguing 24/7, we cooperate when necessary, and we're not crazy different on ideological logic, etc. But I don't talk to anyone about anything here. I only talk to my friends and that's why I love them so much but I haven't had a relationship with my family since I was little. And that shit really sucks sometimes because I think about fun things we can all do as a family all the time but I literally can't because of school. All the memories I had with my mom I miss to the point where it just makes me sad. And all of this starts with the fact that nobody in my house can relate to me. I'm a first generation immigrant and nobody has gone to an a university here and they don't understand what I'm talking about when I bring up concepts or things I've learned. My interests are just so different that there's almost a cultural divide splitting us up. It just makes me wish it could be like when I was younger when it felt like we were all in sync