Ive always felt lonely for not being in a relationship but i have never been it one before. I feel just upset alot of the time, sometimes my chest hurts and im not sure what to do. im 21 so idk if its kind of weird or not. i dont really flirt with anyone or try to imply a relationship or anything because i dont want to come off like a dick or anything. im constantly editing this post and second guessing if im in the right or not too. im not very confident with myself either.

I want to try and find someone online or even some new friends but i can just never bring myself to it. sometimes i feel ill be alone forever and that im chasing after a fantasy or something. im starting to think more that there is something wrong with me or maybe im doing something wrong. maybe im just not that interesting im not sure, sometimes i feel alot worse than this.

I dont really put myself out as much as i should, i dont think that i should be a priority to other people and so and just try to make everyone else happy. i still not sure whether i want to post this cause i think people probably have better things to do or that they are probably going through something similar or worse.