I'm not sure why I'm writing on this sub-reddit out of all the places here...but, this may possibly be the place to let this all out, I hope...

So, yes...I'm feeling ashamed. Ashamed to say that I am lonely. I try to avoid using that word the majority of the time, because I feel it isn't true, for the most part. I feel I'm pretty out going enough, I have friends at work, outside of work, and a lovely family who raised me okay...So...why am I so lonely?

I shouldn't be using that word, I really shouldn't...but I can't help it when I'm feeling that painful tightness in my chest when I'm trying to get some sleep at night and instead end up tearing up because of bullshit emotional feelings.

But whatever. Fuck me, right?

...Just kind of wanted to get that out of my chest. Everything just hurts.