(32m) So I can't say I'm depressed anymore, atleast not severely so.

I live with a panic disorder that has quite a few triggers. I have CPTSD from several key moments from Childhood.

I have to wear a blindfold in vehicles and can't drive myself places, I can't go to the beach, I have issues standing on hills, and tall buildings cause severe anxiety aswell.

I live a fairly reclusive life because of these things; Spending most of my time on my pc reading, gaming, or watching movies. I had put off the idea of a relationship painlessly for a while until a woman happened into my life only to disappear for a couple weeks to come back and tell me that she went on a trip with friends to do shrooms and already is in a relationship and essentially was using me to make herself feel better.

She apologized but It fucked me up something fierce and I've been terribly lonely since, not sure where to go from here.

(I should mention, I do work and I' m getting by okay regardless of my disorder.)