Ya know, I've spent A LOT of time on the internet, and I know all of you have, too. I've keyed into something recently...

I started a small business about a month ago (If you must know, it's a little dessert business). Two weeks ago, this bar/ performance venue invited me to setup shop there and start selling stuff. This last Tuesday, it EXPLODED. People were taking pictures with me, this and that, I got free drinks the whole night, I sold out both times, and, of course, I got invited back - for a weekly slot as a matter of fact...

I'm saying all of this because my experience in real life is repeatedly the OPPOSITE of my experience online; Barely any DMs ever no matter how hard I try, ghosting completely out of the blue, no one ever writes back, etc. etc. These types of things will, well, ya know, get a person down! I repeatedly think of myself as a total, undesirable piece of shit because I get so little action online, but really, there is a whole world of people out there waiting to appreciate you - the thing is you've gotta bring something to the table.

I left the house the other day saying, "Fuck this dessert business. Fuck this shit. Why am I going to stay up all night making this shit for these people. This shit isn't going to go anywhere. I'm just gonna lose money. Fuck this..." Seriously. I've gone to the venue twice and each and every time I was thiiiiis far from bailing, but I just sacked up and did it... and it's paying off.

Whatever it is you do - whatever you passion is, whatever you voice is - If it's macrame, bookmark making, movies, writing, cocktails, whatever - just figure out how to turn it into something that you can serve people with, and it will pay off. The loneliness will still be there when you come home to your crappy twin size bed that you've slept in since you were 17. Your "friends" will still not call you. You'll still have to cook all your own meals and wallow and whatever else, but... well, I dunno... I hope all those things change for you -I hope they change for me too - but we've gotta keep on going, and I know that bringing people joy is alright, and pretty rewarding.

That's all I got.

Good luck out there you lonely souls...