I feel like I’m losing my mind. I’ve made it a point to reach out to a bunch of people on this thread (sadly there’s too many to reach out to everyone) because being lonely sucks. I guess I’ve helped them because they have ghosted me for the most part and I don’t see them posting here anymore.

Now I’m the one who’s collapsing inside his mind. I am laying here trying not to bawl. I’m a truck driver, my life style is already solitary. But now, things just feel so much worse. I’d go on a deep dive suicidal rant but this isn’t the place for that, and I’m too chicken to do anything.

This hasn’t really been a problem before, so I don’t get what’s changed. I used to be fine doing things by myself. Now I can’t motivate to do a god damn thing. Fuck.