For the lack of care and consideration

For the stalking and ceaseless begging to have you back

For promising you everything and giving nothing

For talking instead of acting

For giving up instead of staying with you

For hiding behind a mask and choosing it over you

For talking instead of acting

For doing whatever I wanted or felt instead of listening to you

For crossing boundaries and not giving you space

And especially for having never given you a proper chance to begin with

I miss you so much, I have missed you all these years

I just wish you knew how much I regret my actions and my decisions

I wish you knew how badly I really wanted to be yours and for my future to have been with you

I just can't get over you no matter how much I try

Even though I know I will never hear from you

You were the best and you truly felt like the one and only for me

I should have treated you better, I should have been better, I should have been more selfless

I'm sorry I was such an immature narcissist to you J

Sincerely - C, Formerly Hex