We all wear them

To look cooler than we are

To look different than we do

To look more appealing than we may seem

To hide the things we don't want others to see

To present ourselves as someone who we are not

To project an image and disguise our true selves

Another big reason for my downfall with her was my refusal to remove my mask and rose tinted glasses

Ironically over the years I have developed a hatred for people who do not show their true selves to me

I was trying to hide my anger, something that I really struggle with at times

I was also trying to cover up my overly raunchy sense of humor at the time as well as my edgy side

I wanted to mask that I was weak, that I was prone to easily giving up and that I was immature and couldn't really take or deal with much

I didn't just want to mask everything though, I really wanted to get rid of it all, I wanted to no longer be all of those things

I didn't just want to hide it, I wanted to bury it all and not be all those problematic things because I loved her so much and hated myself and all those things about me

In the end I panicked, my own mistrust got the best of me, I became numb, and I gave up

I chose the mask I wore and a false identity over her, I chose to continue being Hex

My biggest shame and regret in my life 🎭