In making these last few posts I am trying to admit to my wrongs and take accountability for how I was towards you and everything I did that hurt you.

I am truly sorry for all of it, I never meant for everything to pan out the way it did.

Though I do still have feelings for you and I still desire a chance to make it up to you and to start over with you I will not ask or beg, as stated in part 1 I have no right to just as I have no right to ask for your forgiveness.

I am the one who was in the wrong and there is no justifying any of what I had done, you have every right to keep me out of your life.

Just know that even though you closed your door to me, I will still keep my door open to you.

Given that the dream I had of losing you and the dreams I had of chasing you further away came true I will still hold on to the dreams I have had of us reconnecting and eventually getting back together.

Even still I will no longer actively seek you out.

I do not expect anything will change between us after this and though I know that I will likely still never hear from you again I will hold on to some faith and hope in those dreams I had because in my eyes and in my heart you really mean that much to me and you are worth it.

You're worth waiting for and I am sorry that I wasn't like this from the beginning.

Sincerely- your once beautiful boy and silly Nugget, CC

Formerly known as Hex

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