To someone I should have done better to be more caring and considerate of

I would like to start this out by stating that I will no longer stalk, chase after or ask, beg and plea to have you back, I do not have the right to

Especially since I am the one who was selfish, inconsiderate and let you go even though I promised you that I would never do that to you

I have no interest or intention of causing you any more stress, pain, or sadness, I know that I have caused enough damage to you, especially from the last time I tried to get in touch with you

When I made posts where I projected myself onto you and didn't even stop to think that the posts I made gave away personal and private details about you

I know that the damage has already been done, that there is no way to go back in time to reverse or prevent myself from making those decisions and take back everything I have done

I am sorry for everything, for all the hurt and trauma that I inflicted onto you, I am sorry that I didn't listen to you and that I wasn't more caring and considerate and that I was selfish and self absorbed

I never really meant for everything to turn out as it had and I never meant to put you through so much, especially knowing your past and what you had gone through before meeting me

These past 4 or 5 years since the day I gave you up have been the saddest, loneliest, painful and regretful years in my entire life

If I had simply listened to you and acted on my words, if I had chosen you over my own misery, negative emotions and fears none of what came after would have happened and we both would have been spared further pain and would likely be happy together

In the end I only have myself to blame for everything that has happened and I don't blame you for wanting to have nothing to do with me.