By giving them to the wrong people

I broke my heart by giving it to the cruel

I lost blood by giving to the vampiric

I scarred my mind by lacking thought

I darkened my soul by letting the evil in

I am hurt because I gave myself to the wrong people

I have hurt others because I was hurt by users

I became selfish and insatiable because I lost so much from giving to greedy people

I am not excusing my actions though as I have still ultimately done wrong and I have lost much more because of my own actions

Just because I was used, manipulated and abused does not excuse me from having done that to others

It does not excuse me for biting helpful hands and shoving away good and worthy people

I am lonely because I have shoved away and denied myself people I deserved

I live in regret and sorrow because I took the easy way when I could have had true love

This is what I get for my decisions and my purchase

I live in darkness because I didn't let the light in when I had the chance

Now I am cold, my mind and heart scarred, soul blackened, blood nearly frozen and drained because of my own desperation, lack of thought and unwillingness to trust the right people

I sincerely encourage anyone who reads this to be careful and to only trust those who really get you

Don't let just anyone in

Don't just shut everyone out

Don't just trust anyone

Don't allow yourself to mistrust everyone either

Both of those only lead to more pain

Just be careful and try your best.