TW NSFW I guess

So I have trouble making friends online because everytime I let things get NSFW. And it’s mostly my fault.

Things sometimes go great and unfortunately I end up feeling so attracted to the soft sweet mannerisms and gentle personalities that I start steering things in the wrong direction. Or maybe we’re chatting late night and I start being so needy.

And like as soon as we’re done “playing” they totally change and start giving me the cold shoulder unless it’s about NSFW things.

Idk what to do 😭 I don’t want to be lonely and I hate jumping from person to person all the time.

And at this point I’ve just accepted NSFW stuff is gonna be a part of friendships but why do people suddenly change? I feel so judged 😭