Seeing other ppl just living makes me not want to anymore. I wish I could make friends, I wish I could get a girlfriend, but honestly, those have become unrealistic to me, and I want to believe that it's wrong for a social life to be unrealistic, but given the way I look and the way I am, I'm basically living proof that everything can be unrealistic to some people. It's the most basic need of all people, and yet, I can't get it, and I realistically won't get it. And don't say that I have to work on myself or that I'm only 18, things get better. I'm way past the point of working on myself. I would go online for friends, but it isn't the same, not at all. I can't work with online friends, I need an actual connection, but that's too hard to get for me. I'm sure everyone already nows this, but your either born lucky (wealthy, good looking, etc) or your born unlucky.