I'm married to a wonderful woman but I have no friends of my own. We've been ethically non-monogamous for years and I usually have one girlfriend I see a couple times a month but it's not the same as having male buddies I can confide in or just hang out with.

I moved away from my hometown over a decade ago and nobody stayed in touch despite the ease of modern communication and social media. My only childhood friend mostly drifted away after high school. Saw him a few times a year in my 20s and we were even roommates for a summer but I think he just stopped enjoying my company. After a decade of not really talking we reconnected when I took an impromptu trip back to my hometown. I crashed on his couch for a few nights but I mostly did my own thing while I was in town. When we parted ways I honestly thought it was the last time I'd ever see him but about six months later he randomly called and suggested he come visit me and meet my wife. He stayed with us for a week and we had some laughs and good times but in a few instances he seemed bored by our company. After going back home he hasn't stayed in touch. Back to square one, it seems.

I turn 40 in a few months and it just feels like I'm destined to always feel lonely. Every attempt I've made throughout my life to find friends hasn't worked out. I recently got back into bowling but...I have no one to play with (yes, I read Bowling Alone when it came out 20 years ago, haha). I wish there were social clubs and organizations like the old days but it seems like all that has gone away.

Thanks for reading. Happy to hear your perspective and anecdotes pertaining to friendships. Does everyone eventually drift away from their friends or am I just a boring person with nothing to offer anyone?