Dear friend,

It's been a while. I'm alone as ever, and I know at least part of the problem is me. I have an extremely hard time believing anyone cares about me. Keeping my heart shut tight doesn't mesh well with trying to fall in love with people. It's something that's on me to work on, but seeing how everything has gone for me up 'til now, I can't help but wonder, "What's the point?"

My issue is not a lack of self-esteem. I actually like myself enough, and my self-esteem is fine, I think. My issue is that I don't believe anyone is capable of (figuratively) seeing me. People find each other all the time, but... it won't be me they find.

So, I've gotta work on receiving love, but like... Whom can I actually trust, you know, to be genuine with me?

Sorry I've been talking so much about myself. How have you been doing since we last spoke?