There is nothing for me anymore. Everybody I can talk to say they care, but I have to rip it out of them. Nobody can see six inches from their own fucking face, and I end up struggling in silence. Even when I ask for help, I don't get it. It's always about how everybody else's life sucks. It's always what other people need, or how they feel. My feelings of neglect, depression and anger are just corrected because nobody wants to see a man hate the world, yet they give nothing to me to make it feel worth it. They make it worse.

Yes, please tell me how it will get better, but make sure to tell me that you don't even like me. That makes me feel great. When I'm venting that I have low self worth because of my failure on dating apps, please tell me that you would match with me for the fuck of it, then unmatch me because I don't follow your criteria. I love being the guy that has to hear constantly about your bullshit problems, only for you to tell me, when I'm explaining how horrible my life is, that not even the shoulder you cry on is worth your time.

There is not one person in my life besides my fucking dad who cares about me. Everyone else couldn't give two fucking shits. My best friend won't talk to me for days on end because he's "busy". Oh, not to busy for your girlfriend, calling her everyday. Never to busy for everyone else, you respond to them daily. But the guy that called and texted you to make sure you hadn't killed yourself doesn't deserve the five seconds it would take to send one fucking message.

Unmatched upon unmatched, ignored by everyone. Ghosted without a single reason as to why. 6 years of being treated like shit by everyone around me, nobody giving two shits. What's even the fucking point anymore? Why do I try and why do I think it will be better if I move out of town? It's not like anything is going to be any different. At least I would get some new scenery while everyone shits on me.

Fuck all of this. Fuck everyone around me.