I'm honestly at the point where I don't really care, I just want to be loved again.

What if you don't want friends anymore? I could care less about "having a night out with my guy friends".

I don't care. I've always HATED parties, going out to bars with people, etc. I took these 2 girls out to a bar once and HATED IT. I can't stand the loud, obnoxious environment. Like ew no, take me to a quiet room, with my SO, and let's be as intimate as possible there, just us, away from the noise, yelling, etc. Never been to a college party, hs party, nothing. And don't want to ever. Not my thing. I like 1 on 1 stuff. It feels SO much more intimate and meaningful to me, because we're solely focused on each other.

I'd be happy going through my life with my wife. What's more appealing to me is having someone I know I can spend the rest of my life with, rather than a "friend" I just want a wifey