I am so tired of being screwed over in relationships, I miss having friends, and doing things by myself is just not as fun. I’m trying to focus on myself but it’s still so lonely.

I’ve been so genuine with my past partners and when I thought I had something real, it was all BS. In my last real relationship, I thought I was blindsided by him breaking up with me, but maybe I was just blind, I am not sure anymore. My mind goes back to that relationship because for a while, it was the best thing I ever had. I am at peace with it now, but I miss the feeling of security, being loved, and having someone feel like home.

I am on dating sites again and it’s so hard to even have conversations with anyone. The conversations are dry, or you’re lucky if anyone even responds to you, or they just want to have sex. I want more than that. I go back and forth on deleting and redownloading dating apps because it gets so frustrating. Is wanting a monogamous serious relationship so out of the ordinary for men these days?

I don’t even have friends to help me through this. I feel like life would be a lot easier for me if I had just anyone to talk to.

It’s so hard to make friends… I’ve went to meetup events near me and the conversations are so superficial and awkward. I know I have to put in work and be patient to meet people but I just wish I had someone, literally anyone right now. 😭