Sorry for the rant that I'm about to do and honestly I don't expect a reply. I just want somewhere to just get this off my chest. I hate the overwhelming feeling of this. It's honestly unbearable right. Most of my friends have always seen me as a guy who's "single by choice". I do understand what that means, but I never felt like I was categorized as that. I want something real and it just seems like that real experience I seek doesn't exist. And sometimes I don't even try for relationship. Just looking for friends sometimes and like I just fall on my face. I'm a really outgoing person but I can't seem to have anyone stick around