I know there's the whole thing of, "you gotta love yourself before you can love someone else" but I just don't think that's true. I have so much love to give and I just know whoever ends up with me will be so doted on and taken care of. I just can't seem to think that I myself deserve that in return. I am not where I want to be in life but I am so lonely that I could use the companionship that goes along with being in a relationship. I won't settle for less than I want and I have expectations for a healthy relationship. I just feel that my type may not want to be with me is all....it makes me feel not good enough - like I don't deserve love at all, the constant sting of rejection. I shouldn't have to change myself for the one that's supposed to be with me but I may just have to. Sorry, I'm just rambling and wanted to get this off my chest. Thank you for reading.