I haven’t been happy with her in the past months and ultimately decided it’s best for us to see other people. I don’t necessarily regret my decision, as I feel it was the only right one. But, I do feel lonely. I feel like I’m gonna die alone. I’m only 21 yet I feel like I’ll never meet someone. Or even make friends. I’m sick of all my friends being people I meet online. Yea yea, “go in the real world and meet real people”. I try. I’m horrible at talking. Once I’m friends with someone I can be the best guy you’ve ever met, but I feel incapable of talking to people I don’t know. I feel annoying. I feel like a bother. And now with this feelings mixed with not smoking pot anymore I essentially just feel like giving up. I told myself when I left that I wouldn’t worry about relationships, but god I’m so fucking lonely. I think it’s the only reason I stayed in my previous relationship for so long. Idk what to do with myself anymore.