I am a 28 M. I am truly tired and fed up with the world. I was born autistic, meaning that I’ve never really had any friends and I have never really felt connected to anyone despite how hard I tried. I walk into a room and everyone looks at me and then returns to whatever they were doing.

My autism, combined with a long term health condition has made me really down because I’m in continuous pain. I am trying so hard to try to build a life for myself to no avail. I feel constantly under appreciated at work despite me trying really hard. I felt that I was average looking but I receive no likes on online dating apps. All I wanted for someone to be there for and to be there for me. I am trying to push myself forward in my life and career and I am so fed up. I just feel so so numb that I don’t fit in and I’ve had enough of that feeling.

I feel so so unattractive and unloved and I feel so tired about it. I believe that you have to put yourself out there to achieve anything, but it has gotten to the point that I am just so hurt with the rejection, that I just can’t take any more of it.

Thank you for reading.