For a bit of context, I'm 31 male and have never had a relationship outside a month long one when I was 17/18.

Like the title says, I feel like I'm just going to die alone. I have a small friends circle, which I'm fine with, they're all really good mates, but the only time I see them is for drinks, which gets a bit boring, so I don't actually see them all that often, and I don't get out much beyond that.

I recently started a new job, there's this girl who I've got to know really well, we have banter, I make her laugh, she makes me laugh, and I have kinda fallen for her. Problem there being, I'm 90% sure she isn't interested in me the same way. I went out for drink with her and her mate and someone she was at the time interested in, but after that night she is no longer interested in them. I Kinda told her in a tipsy and not very coherent way, how I feel about her and I got the line "I love you as a friend", but there's a small part of me that wonders if she thought I was only saying it because I had a few drinks. The other problem is we sit next to each other in work, so if I take my shot it will more than likely be awkward in the office. She is literally the first girl in a very long time I have gotten on this well with, not only that, she's the only girl I have actually fallen for and not just lusted after.

The reason I feel like I am destined to be alone isn't all down to this one situation though, I have been on dating apps for a while now, and I have literally not had a single reply, like, or match, that hasn't been a bot from halfway around the world. It has put my self-confidence at an all-time low, and it has only gotten worse since I have met this girl, I've been on more apps, more frequently than ever, and today and the past couple of weeks have just been the worst for feeling like I'm going to die alone, and TBH I wonder if I was gone tomorrow would anyone outside my small circle of friends, and my family even care.