Besides working a job I hate (pays decent but sucks the life and soul out of me) & paying bills. There is nothing exciting in my life. Nothing of purpose. Just nothing. I’m surrounded by married people, people in relationships, pregnant women. & I’m just here. Alone. The only reason I haven’t done the thing is because I don’t wanna leave that burden on my mom.

I try to be social, but I live in a small racist redneck town so it does me 0 good. The only texts I get are from spammers (of course). There’s no point in drinking & smoking my feelings away because it’s just a waste of money & I still feel shitty & alone.

I just cried my eyes out in the bathroom at work because I just hate everything about my life. Working towards goals feels pointless because they feel so unattainable. I have no savings. Retirement is a fantasy. I’m gonna be working forever just to die.

Rant over.