Incoming rambling also slight TW

Well there’s a lot going on in my head but I’ll narrow it down bc I just want someone to hear me and understand and acknowledge me. But I’m wanting to drink again and TW…… self harm again. I’m getting to the point where i completely disassociate with my feelings and when that happens, i do something stupid. Imma be honest, the only thing keeping me on this earth is my dog. He’s my world and my best friend. But man the thoughts really be getting to me yknow? I’m so fucking lonely all the time, my phone is dryer than the Sahara Desert, and I have no irl friends.. I don’t have anyone to go to so here I am on a subreddit about being lonely. Also the dating world is just fucking with me too. Like how tf do I not get any matches? Well obviously dating apps are trash but still. Idk man I just want to be held and told it’ll be ok before I do something stupid…

Sorry for the ramble I just idk my mind is running at a million mph and yeah