Been doing better recently, but having a pretty low night tonight. Just feeling incredibly lonely again. I get no physical other than a friendly family hug every so often.

I just wish I could lay in someones arms, have them hold me, have it be okay cry with my face in their shoulder if I need to. A kiss on the head and they caress me and squeeze me tight.

I can't even begin to explain how much that would do for me right now. I really hate being an adult, because it doesn't ever actually feel any different, but you aren't allowed to show that.

No matter my age, I just feel like child who's all alone, and just needs some genuine love and care.