I've never had a real SO. I dream about what it'd be like to hold someone and have affection and intimacy. Things couples take for granted everyday. I feel extremely touch starved right now.

I want someone to snuggle and hug on so bad I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I keep having dreams about intimate encounters and wake up feeling sad they weren't real. I just want someone to nestle into on the couch and watch a movie with. I can almost guarantee I would fall asleep within 15 minutes because I feel so safe and warm and my ramped up nervous system and cortisol levels finally calm down.

Even platonically, that would be great :( I wish there were people close to me who I could do this with.