I'm just gonna come out and say it, I feel like I'm a failure. I'm not gonna do something that I can't turn back from, but I just feel like I've got nobody in my life keeping me together anymore. I don't want to talk to my family, I greatly detest being near my co-workers, and I can't seem to keep someone interested in me anymore; I don't even know what I'm doing wrong.

I'm not "one of the boys", I don't care to be around other guys, I just wanna be left alone so I can get on in life, but I just can't stop hurting. FFS, I'm almost 30 and I've got nobody to talk to, and anyone that does just bails on me and leaves me worse for wear. Then I do what I always do and put up the facade of "Everything is fine, just leave me alone please".

I'm just shut in; I don't really truly believe I can be happy when life just keeps smacking me with another disappointment. I dunno what to do anymore with myself, I give up. This heartbreak I keep going through is just gonna doing me in someday, I dunno when or where, but I should expect nothing less really.