I got rejected again today by another person who claimed they "couldn't meet my needs" but what they really meant was they couldn't deal with my limitations and didn't want to keep talking to someone as sick and disabled as I am.

I know that's what it always comes down to. I can't meet in person, I can't voice chat, no one wants someone who can mostly only text chat. I don't know why I keep trying. It's so depressing. People don't want to spend time with someone who's so limited and certainly not have any kind of relationship, even a low key thing. It's hard to even find reliable friends. I lost most of my IRL ones a long time ago.

I just want someone to chat with, keep each other company, be kind to each other, offer support. I have a lot of care and attention to give but I'm not the right fit for anyone.

I know why most people want things that are IRL or at least can have phone and video and stuff, and I get it but...it's so so lonely. I'm in pain all the time, I'm stuck at home, and I'm alone and keep getting bailed on by people who say I'm amazing and they feel so connected to me and I'm not like anyone they've ever met but it always falls apart because of my disabilities. I'm just filler for them or disappoint them by not being able to be enough. I wish they'd at least still want to be friends but I just get abandoned.