Wanna cry somebody about physical abuse. Can support you, if you have similar experience. Or about other life issues.

39F (stealth transsexual woman - in real life I pretend, that I'm just a straight female, and hided fact of transition from employer, friends, etc), Canada. My husband is cisgender male. He knows that I'm trans, his parents are not. They also don't know, that 3 years ago he started to beat me (we're 10 years ago together).

So, basically, I live in the hell. Not always. He is very nice time to time, like other abuser. And I can't exit. Because afraid. Afraid to be forever alone, and never meet a guy, who can like me and create with me a family. Also, afraid to be without protection in the world, which is in the fire. I feel so insecure :(

So stupid. I know. I hate how stupid am I.

Overall, I'm a romantic bookworm, I like literature, I like to write myself (writing two novels now...), I like to support other people - I managed support groups in the past, as well as prevented suicides, I like science and technology - I'm a bit geek. Or not a bit, lol. Work in the technology sector.