Iv suffered through a lot of lack of socialization. i was homeschooled. and my parents did nothing to socialize me. i did make friends when i was 19. i tried keeping n touch but people get married, etc, and of course monogamy usually means they drop everyone slowly and get to busy. fade away

since covid it seems its gotten a lot worse, i think because i made friends online locally and now. all those spaces have been overrun bye thirsty men, bye scammers, etc. its hard to find anyone to talk to that you accually can meet in person.

it scares me as i get older. and of course being working poor at my age does not help. that things will get more lonely and sad from here on out.