Last few months I have come to realize I am no longer happy. I have been in a horrible headspace with a lot of stuff going on and I have never felt this way and always made sure to be the best I could be.

However, lately I just don't feel like myself and it kinda scares me. I have literally no one I can go to our even vent to. People say they are there for you but when you need them they are gone.

I never worried about dating or being with someone because I always focused on myself and my daughter which a father should do and I never really thought I was alone till now. I haven't dated anyone in over 10 years, have maybe a handful of people I actually call a friend.

I have never really felt like I was alone till recently. I have a lot going on right now like 98% of the world and it is just a really tough time currently. I never knew how this feeling felt in my life, but I now know and I feel for anyone else that has this feeling.

I feel like a failure, loser, and whatever else there is to be called but I know deep down I'm not and it's just the feelings. I am very sorry to post this here but I really need to let it out and where else better to a bunch of strangers on the internet. If anyone else is feeling this way or even can make sense of my rambling I hope it passes quickly for you!

Thank you for letting me vent