okay just warning at the start my acc is a bit nsfw hence the warning thing. but i’ve just been super depressed lately and can’t be bothered to make a new acc. so my issue is no matter how much effort i put in to making friends it feels useless. like most of my irl friends don’t talk to me anymore, i have to be the one to reach out and i just get lazy/uninterested answers. so i tried to combat that by making online friends, which went even worse because i lost them as fast as i made them. and don’t get me wrong i still have online “friends” but we don’t really like talk. just exchange messages a bit. i don’t feel close to anyone and a lot of times i just feel like a bother because i have like a constant need to talk to someone. okay i think i’ve ranted enough. if any one wants you can reach out but not promising a reply because lots of people i have met here just hurt me worse :/