I can't stop thinking about that 1 person and it's absolutely destroying me inside.

I met a girl online when I was around 13 (around 14/15 years ago).. I really liked her, she really liked me (apparently), and we talked basically 24x7. Only problem was she was halfway across the world.

We talked for 14/15 years - but never met IRL. Last year, she decided it was finally time to come visit me and booked flights. Part of me was excited to finally meet her, but another part of me was absolutely terrified that I would be a massive disappointment.

Sounds great, right? Unfortunately she decided that it wasn't a good idea in the end, and cancelled her flights. She also decided it was best that we don't talk anymore - and removed me from all social media.

I wish I could just forget about her - but it's just not that easy. She made the last 14 years of my life bearable and there are just so many things that remind me of her. We were so close to finally meeting IRL - but now we'll probably never talk again and that just absolutely kills me.

I feel kind of stupid getting so hung up on someone I've never even met IRL - but she played a massive part of literally half of my life. I end up thinking about her pretty much every day and its killing me not being able to talk to her.

I honestly don't even know why I'm sharing this - just a bit of a vent I guess