All I want in the world right now is to lay on someone’s chest right while they rub my head and tell me everything is okay. I just want to feel loved, and feel like someone actually cares about me.

Honestly I don’t think anyone cares about my story - but I just really need to vent. I have nobody to talk to so strangers on the internet seems like the best alternative.

I’m a 28yo guy and loneliness is hitting me super hard lately.

I don’t think I’ve had a true friend since my teenage years - everybody since then has been more of an acquaintance through work. I’ve worked remotely for the past 4 years, so it’s basically impossible to make actual friends through work now.

As for dating, that side of things is nonexistent. I’ve never actually been on a date, and heck I’ve never even kissed a girl. I’ve matched with very attractive people on dating apps over the years but I was always too scared to make a move. To be honest I usually feel like they are completely out of my league. My standards are quite high, which ends up with me feeling like I’m really not good enough for that person even if they show interest. The fact that I’ve never been on a date or even kissed a girl also makes the idea of asking them out absolutely terrifying. I wouldn’t know what to do - and would probably just make a fool of myself. The fear of rejection and/or judgement just completely paralyses me.

I’ve had a lot of online friends over the years - but they’ve all disappeared with time. There was one girl that I’ve spoken to online for probably 14 years - but she recently parted ways with me and honestly I still haven’t recovered from that. I still think about her daily and would do anything to be able to talk to her again especially now that I’m falling apart, but I know I have to let her get on with her life.

I feel like I have nobody left. I’m suffering right now, but there is nobody that I can reach out to that will comfort me and tell me that everything will be okay.

I don't expect anybody to have read this far but idk. I'm not great at putting things into words or expressing how I'm feeling inside but I just wanted to vent a little bit as it seems like a slightly better option than sitting in silence while I cry