I guess it's just my first year fully alone. No partner no family no friends. Just solitude and a holiday that never really ment much to me. Im 37 and have restarted my life so many times now that I guess this is finally my restart that I am fully alone in.

Ive been through alot many times and this year I have gone on a self rebuilding inner peace journey that left me alone.

Peace is very important and sadly that made me burn alot of bridges for the greater good.

If anything I do wish I had some friends and warmth by now but I dont feel despair or sadness this time. I think i finally put inner peace first as a priority and followed through with it.

That being said I miss having a warm touch and heartfelt friendship and or relationship so its still a bitter sweet time of the year haha.

I am happier jus tmaybe not fufilled just yet and that's ok I have time and I want better for myself.

If anyone reads this you got this too and I hope reading this gives a little hope and reflection to other lonely people trying to move forward with their inner peace.