Hi, so I'm 30 years old, from Syria, I have nothing to look up for, I'm just so tired of life, I forgot what happens feels like, I live in fear and uncertainty, yet everything feels absurd to me, I'm lost with meaningless thoughts and I feel like I can't understand own self anymore. At times, I feel like I'm hopelessly attached to false hopes, at others nothing means anything to me. I construct entire worlds in my imagination then tear them down. I live in distant dimensions most of the time. Abandoning reality has became a habit for me, I pass days doing so. No matter how hard I try to achieve something, I feel stuck, even trapped. My inability to step out from this status shocks me. See, I always though of my self as a man of logic, but now, now nothing makes sense to me anymore...