Had today and yesterday off work, and all ive done is lay in bed and eat. I tried playing a few different games and just got instantly bored. No motivation to read or write either. Sometimes i out vodeos on but its just background noise, i dont have anyone to consistently talk to. I work nights so im up until like 6am my time and its tough to find anything to do or anyone to talk to. My thoughts spiral out of control. Im severely depressed and cant ever seem to find a date, and it just worse by the day, its been 17 years since i was in a relationship and I dont know how much longer I can take it, every day I feel like im closer to giving in and i have no idea what to do.