Honestly Its happening again, Im here by myself feeling lonely because and the few ppl I like to talk to life is just horribly boring and now im just a college student just cant seem to find away to shake this feeling. Video games aint hitting the same for me rn, Love life is so dead that i completely gave up on it and im 23 and tbh I just feel angrier and angrier because why am I handed the short end of the stick. Why isnt there someone there for me when I want them this is bullshit really. I mean im not the perfect person but am I wrong for wanting someone I can reliably call on or am I a delusion mf. Not to mention anytime somebody says theyll be there for me or say the have feelings for me they just up and disappear and honestly im sick of this shit. But then again I blame myself because maybe just maybe I should have been more of a dickhead and that may take the pain of rejection and loneliness away then trying to be cordial and nice and try to be supportive of love. Since Love is never coming into my life why support it. Overall I must say that this is fucked beyond all believe for me and honestly idk what to do anymore or how to handle it besides going solo .