Nothing i do is right, I keep trying to be friends with a female who I use to have a very strong connection with.

She keeps telling me how she is sick of being used, and is sick of being lonely herself. And wants a relationship.

I dont even know how to explain anything thats going on so ill just let you read the conversation

'backstory' I acted like a dick and tried to control her because she has an addictive personalty and i was afraid of losing her to drugs or being cheated on again.

http://i.imgur.com/4x4j99R.png

http://i.imgur.com/RJmHAGn.png

http://i.imgur.com/vT4AvqO.png

http://i.imgur.com/stuwzwZ.png

http://i.imgur.com/fTHit7q.png

http://i.imgur.com/ssjcq91.png

http://i.imgur.com/Vp3J1cg.png

http://i.imgur.com/kQYRd0U.png

and then I was ignored. I just dont know what to do anymore. I cant do anything without wanting to die or kill myself. (yes i know of /r/suicidewatch i want to doesnt mean I will.)

i feel so useless and i want to just give up