Honestly, I don't know where to start. Everywhere I look is depressing, but I suppose I should start at the beginning

I'm a Christian (not a hard-ass, insolent, self-righteous, or close-minded one). When I was younger, I tried to do absolutely no wrong within my abilities. I didn't date, kiss anyone, or think anything of anything like that. I was always kind to everyone and made it my goal to make sure everyone is included everywhere. Nonetheless, I was asked out all the time and a number of people had crushes on me, all who I turned down in an attempt to not make any mistakes or have any regrets. Later on in life, I'd realize this was actually the biggest mistake/regret I possibly could have made

Fast forward to college, where I finally started to learn that to have regrets is to have lived, and I never truly lived before. So I dated someone, who turned out to be a physchopath and falsely accused me of doing things to her and would joke about calling the cops on me saying that I raped her, just for fun. Whatever, I tried to not let it affect me that much

Girlfriend two, about two years later, wasn't much better. She was a horrible person and never did a single thing with me in mind, and never showed she even cared. She was someone that had had a crush on me in high school, so I wanted to give her a chance because she was very kind in highschool. Not anymore. She was nasty, demeaning, and a misandrist. She went on to all but cheat on me, and to cheat on her next 2-3 boyfriends after me

After that, I was left feeling horrible and not sure what to do with myself. I seriously talked to a couple different people, one whom was truly amazing but not my type, and it was a miserable experience. Two of them cut me off because I WOULDN'T be mean to them or try to manipulate them. The most recent one I would talk to every day all day and booked a trip to go see her (with her permission/planning), and then she blocked me two weeks before I left, and said she was planning on stranding me in her country when I got there, but couldn't handle actually going through with it

Now, I look around, and I don't know what to do. As a man, I feel hated everywhere, and I KNOW it is much worse for other guys than even me, because I'm decently charming and sociable. Even if I were gay or bi, they seem to kinda be hated by women too, at least from what I've seen online and in person. Am I destined to just be alone because I was born a man? On top of all that, I'm circumcised, and that's a HUGE ordeal that I don't even know how to get into

Seriously, and I mean quite seriously, what is the point of even living in this world alone? Why am I even here?