I sometimes wonder what my first kiss will be like. Where will it be? How will it feel? Will I be nervous? Or will it happen so suddenly there will be no time to think on it. Who will it be with? What will she be like? Will I have known her for some time? Or will she be almost a stranger to me? Will we continue to know each other? Or will be part ways as soon as it is over? Where is she? That’s a big one, really. Where is she?

This is something I have thought about since I was about 6 years old, and would see the older kids kissing after school. I would wonder about when it would be my turn … and the thought became a hope, and a dream. But that is all it has been, while I see everyone else get to do it. It just stays a dream. A hope. When will it be more than that? When will it be real?