For a while now I've kinda just pushed my feelings aside and let them disappear. Now most of the time it feels like they leak out at stupid times. Of course I can enjoy things in the moment, like movies, food, etc., but the rest of the time I'm just empty/bored. The only time I get any emotion is the stupid sudden road rage, or I'll get sad and lonely during the day. I even get a little choked up at any happy reunion scenes in movies; and i dont get emotional during movies, even if I've seen it before, its not even emotional I think I just long for any closeness and get a little teary. Sometimes I think that they will just disappear entirely or they will come out like a wave one day. Not really sure how I feel about either.