So, I moved to CA a year ago from IN with my wife and shortly after she left me for someone she met at grad school.

Skip forward a month or so i meet this girl at a club and we become best friends and have been best friends for about a year now. Anyway we’ve tried going out a few times and i get super into which I think is a turn off for her. I mean she just doesn’t feel the same way about me

The biggest problem is we go out together all the time and guys are constantly all over and and it makes me so sad and anxious. I try so hard to just be myself and hangout but it makes me feel like I have to go hit on people because if she’s moved on and I need to too.

And sometimes girls will come up and dance with me and I swear to god I look at them and words just don’t come out. I can’t talk to pretty girls it’s actually impossible.

I just hate being single, I hate being alone, I hate being by myself and I just want to be held so bad.

I just wanna lay up watch movies/cartoons, go dancing, make dinner, and just hangout with my person.

Thanks for letting me scream into the abyss